Hey! So just wanted to say I am officially back from my absence. 
(also posting here due to some members leaving that I felt should see this)
I wanted to let you guys know how I am doing (at the risk of being looked down upon for this being public). I at first had an really hard time with my depression to the point that I wouldn't eat or drink for 4 days. I had to be hospitalized for not drinking (as the body shouldn't go without water no more than 2 days). During this time it challenged my faith and to be honest I felt like giving up on life all together.
What kept me going was my Dad coming by with my kids and a computer. Seeing my kids smiles and feeling their hugs gave me all I needed to stay alive. Then after they left I connected to the local wifi and checked my absence post. Reading those post gave me a strong feeling to move forward. The love that came from this clan helped me get up and leave that hospital and its something that I could never repay in this lifetime. To some it may not have seemed like much but your words of kindness in my time of need showed just what true friends you all are. Also to those that reached out through other means like Steam and Skype I also wanted to thank you specifically because it meant a lot to me.
I have since started bettering myself in almost every way I can think of. I started back exercising regularly and eating healthy (I weigh 170lb's or 77.4kg's so I lost 15lb's). I was able to find a new decent job and I will soon be moving back into my own place (so my brother can finally have some privacy
).
I still have a ways to go before I could ever consider myself truly healed but I do feel happy enough to come back and play from time to time (my internet is flakey where I currently stay so if I random disconnect its due to that).
TL:DR I am back and thanks to everyone that offered what support they could.
Cya on the server
(also posting here due to some members leaving that I felt should see this)I wanted to let you guys know how I am doing (at the risk of being looked down upon for this being public). I at first had an really hard time with my depression to the point that I wouldn't eat or drink for 4 days. I had to be hospitalized for not drinking (as the body shouldn't go without water no more than 2 days). During this time it challenged my faith and to be honest I felt like giving up on life all together.
What kept me going was my Dad coming by with my kids and a computer. Seeing my kids smiles and feeling their hugs gave me all I needed to stay alive. Then after they left I connected to the local wifi and checked my absence post. Reading those post gave me a strong feeling to move forward. The love that came from this clan helped me get up and leave that hospital and its something that I could never repay in this lifetime. To some it may not have seemed like much but your words of kindness in my time of need showed just what true friends you all are. Also to those that reached out through other means like Steam and Skype I also wanted to thank you specifically because it meant a lot to me.
I have since started bettering myself in almost every way I can think of. I started back exercising regularly and eating healthy (I weigh 170lb's or 77.4kg's so I lost 15lb's). I was able to find a new decent job and I will soon be moving back into my own place (so my brother can finally have some privacy
).I still have a ways to go before I could ever consider myself truly healed but I do feel happy enough to come back and play from time to time (my internet is flakey where I currently stay so if I random disconnect its due to that).
TL:DR I am back and thanks to everyone that offered what support they could.
Cya on the server
